Like A Love Song – Book Review

Like a Love Song

My friend Pooja gifted this book to me on my birthday and it was such a lovely gift I tell you!

Like a Love Song is a love story authored by Nikita Singh and she has done a good job. I had never read Nikita’s work before and this book set a good opinion about her in my mind.

The story is all about Mahi’s life, dream and the people important to her in her life. It is all about how she gets dumped and fucked up her life. Nikita has penned down Mahi’s first relationship to a great detail. She has perfectly captured the attitude a 17 yr old would carry. She has portrayed Mahi beautifully. I could see myself in her in bits and portions and I am sure you will relate to her too. She is more of a live person than a character in the story.

I liked the fact that she has shown the protagonist as one little kid who messes up her life, drops out of college, fucks her relationships and almost destroys her dream. It all feels so real unlike other novels where the lead character is “know it all” kinds with great looks and super brains.

The entire story is knitted together against a plot of Mahi’s relationships and dreams. It is interesting to unfold Mahi’s life and Nikita has done a great job in keeping reader’s interest alive till the end. It does get boring in between when Mahi is shown hell bent on dropping out of college the second time, this time to chase her dream. But i think such things could be happening  in reality.

I loved the intensity with which Nikita has narrated the “post breakup” Mahi (the first time) and all her efforts to put herself together. It will really move you. Another powerful narration is towards the end of the story where Mahi has blown out practically everything that was important to her like her family, best friend, her love and most importantly her dream. You will really feel bad to see her in that state.

The falling in and falling out of the love will consume you, it consumed me at least because I hate to see personal relationships falling apart even in movies and novels. I personally think the end could have been better because I believe in happy endings but yeah, life is not always that kind and Nikita has captured that really well.

I think Nikita could have done a better job for describing “falling in love again” phase of Mahi. She did show her inhibitions but i feel should could have elaborated more on that and shown how slowly yet beautifully she enters the world of love again, rather than jumping in love after a small phase of holding to inhibitions.

All in all, its a good book. There is no moment of “what a crap story” or “it is so boring” but there are no moments of a great high either, apart from some power pact pieces i already mentioned.

Over all Rating: 3.5/5

P.S: I loved the character of Laila in this book :). Do read this book to find out more about Laila and Mahi.

An Apology

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Suresh stomped into the house, hurled his bag, loosened his tie and sunk into the sofa. Priya came with a glass of water.

“How was your day?” asked Priya cheerfully. She had noticed that ever since Suresh had heard of demise of his best friend’s mother, he was upset. For a few days Priya thought that it was natural since she was very dear to him too! After all he had known her for all his life. But days passed by and Suresh was still the same, in fact worse!

“It was fine” Suresh replied curtly.

“Ok! Freshen up fast, dinner is ready. I have made your favourite Aaloo parathas.” Priya made another attempt at cheering up. Priya knew that her husband gets very hungry by the time he returns from work and any unnecessary questions often made him angry. So she decided to wait until she brings up the topic.

Both of them silently had dinner. While Priya was doing the dishes, Suresh went to the balcony for a smoke.

Priya was determined to hit the bull’s eye today! She couldn’t see Suresh so restless. She had known the reason; in fact, she had known it for years! But she could never brace up enough courage to confront Suresh. After all, she couldn’t risk their relation to revive an old one! She took a deep breath, mustered all the courage and brought up the topic.

“Suresh, mummy ji had called today. She was worried about you. Why weren’t you answering her calls? For how long would you ignore her?” Priya asked while making the bed. She somehow wanted to get Suresh talking. Suresh never discussed much about his mother but never stopped Priya from having a cordial relationship with her.

Suresh preferred to be not poked when he is upset, so Priya was carefully trying to make the dreaded conversation with him. All her attempts had failed so far for so many years, and today’s attempt didn’t seem different either. Even then, she was hoping that this direct confrontation would do some magic, but who knows if it would be like a boomerang! 

“Suresh… I am talking to you baby.”

Suresh responded only by exhaling circles of smoke.

“Suresh, now enough is enough ok? Please don’t overdo” Priya commanded pulling out the cigarette from his hand. She didn’t wait for even a second to throw it in to the ash tray.

Few seconds passed by and both of them were staring in to each other’s eyes. Priya’s eyes were questioning and Suresh’s eyes were pleading.

Suresh hugged Priya tight, burried his face between her neck and shoulder trying hard to control the sobs. 

“Is there something that you want to talk to me?” asked Priya lovingly. She was slowly running her fingers from his hair. She knew it soothed him, always!

Next Day:

“Ma, I am sorry. I am very sorry! I said what I said out of anger that day. I don’t mean it at all. I know you haven’t estranged me from my dad. I know you were not responsible for his death. I know you have always loved me the most, yeah, more than dad did. I am sorry Ma for distancing myself from you for so many years. I am sorry for blaming you for all wrong things. I am sorry for being rude. I am sorry for not being a good son! Please forgive me Ma. My pain of losing dad had made me blind and I failed to see that you were as shattered as I was, may be more. I failed to distinguish the right from wrong, good from bad, family from foes. I am sorry Ma – for not being your strength in your toughest time. I am sorry Ma, I am sorry for everything!” Sitting at his mother’s feet, Suresh was crying inconsolably. 

“Beta” Ma said helping Suresh to his feet. She couldn’t control the tears that had welled in for so many years now. With a quivered voice she continued “Beta, you were not wrong. You saw what you were shown. Circumstances were such that we could never clear the misunderstandings between us and after your dad passed away, the so called “relatives” took benefit and increased the distance between us. But Beta, as you grow old, you must learn to judge people. You must learn to see who loves you and who is using you.”

“Ma, I see everything clearly now. I promise I will never be a bad son again. Won’t you give me another chance Ma, please? Will you please move in with us Ma?” Suresh pleaded with folded hands.

“I will Beta, I will” Now Ma was crying, more of tears of joy! In spite of all the pain that the destiny and her own son had given her, she couldn’t stop loving him. She lovingly held Suresh’s head and kissed him on his forehead.

Ma hugged Suresh and he never felt more loved. He held her tight, with closed eyes he pictured all his childhood that he had spent in Ma’s warm care. With Ma still in his embrace, when he finally opened his eyes, he saw Priya standing at the door. He showed her a thumbs up! And a smile broke on his face.

Priya blew kisses in return. Her efforts of 5 years had paid off today! She was successful in making Suresh apologize to his Ma and renew the relationship between them.

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Love never dies! Don’t let misunderstandings hamper any relationship. It’s not worth it. The years lost in withdrawal are lost forever; you can never make up for them. And life may not always give you a second chance. Do not hesitate to apologize if required. It mends the relationship faster than any other reconciliation. Respect relationships, nurture them!

via Daily Prompt: Lovingly

I Love You The Most in My Heart!

She: So… this is it?
He: Yes. I am sorry
……… silence………
……… silence………
………more silence………

She (with welled eyes): Ok then! I should be going.
He: I am sorry. Please dont cry!

She: You need not apologise, its my mistake! I should have known that you are not prepared for a comittment.

…….. A long pause …………..

She: Hope we never cross paths again

She picks her bag and leaves.

Rohan’s mind ran the past like a film in front of his eyes when he saw Radhika in his son’s school
10 years after they broke up.

Rohan was hesistant to move from that spot but his son pulled him by his hand saying “Papa come on… we are getting late for the PTM (Parents Teachers Meet)”

Rohan followed Aarav to his classroom with a very heavy heart. The classroom was full and noisy with children and parents, everyone chattering with everyone!

“Hello Mr Singh! Aarav’s mom didnt come today??” Asked a lady who Rohan assumed to be a mom of Aarav’s some friend.

“Hi.. no she had an appointment with the doctor so I had to come!”

“Hope all is well.” The lady expressed her concern for Aarav’s Mom

“Yeah.. just routine checkup. Do you know how long this PTA will take? I have to rush to office” Rohan said – not being sure himself about if he really wanted to rush to office or to go look for Radhika again.

“Well.. now the teacher will come, brief for 15 mins and next 15 mins will be spent on giving feedback to parents individually.”

“Damn!” Murmured Rohan realising that it would be impossible to look for Radhika 30 minutes later. His thought process was broken with a loud chorous of “Goooooood Mooooorninggg Teaaaacchheeerrr…..”

Rohan couldnt believe what he saw. Radhika had walked in with a bunch of assessment sheets. She looked beautiful even today. She had draped saree gracefully and a bindi on her forhead gave her a matured look which she carried perfectly. Rohan didnt miss to notice mangalsutra in her neck and something pinched his heart.

For next ten minutes Rohan couldnt understand what was happening in the PTA because his mind was flooded with Radhika’s memories. He was awestruck to know that although his mind had ruled his heart for over 10 years now, every bit of Radhika’s memories are still intact in the deepest corner of his heart.

He thought he had a brief eye contact with Radhika while she was addressing the parents and all the suppressed love came gushing back! How he wanted to held her in his arms, kiss her on the forehead and apologise for hurting her so bad 10 years ago… but only if he could really do it!

He anxiously waited his turn for meeting the teacher. Slowly most of the parents dispersed with their children and in the end only Aarav, Rohan and Radhika were left in the classroom.

“So.. Mr Singh, welcome to Sacred Heart School. Mrs Singh didn’t come today?” Radhika greeted formally.

“Uuuhh.. No.. she had an appointment with the doctor so i came!” Exclaimed Rohan unsure of whether he made sense.

Radhika briefed him about his son’s progress but Rohan was lost in her deep kohol filled eyes. Radhika’s was so beautiful! Straight nose pierced with a small diamond. How he used to love this diamond 10 years ago too! Perfect pouty lips brushed with a pastle pink lip colour. How he used to love her lips 10 years ago too!
He was not sure if Radhika caught him staring blank at her and suddenly something zapped him back to sense, it was Radhika’s cold but loud voice.

“Thank you for attending this meeting Mr Singh” Radhika repeated the third time with a straight face.

“…. so this is it?” He said
“Yes.” She said firmly.

……..silence…..
….more silence…

” ok then! I should be going” he said with eyes welling up.

“Hoping to see Mrs Singh next time. Wishing her a speedy recovery!” She said

“Thanks! Take care… He grimaced but could hide the worry  in his voice.

……. long pause………

“Dont worry, this time around I am strong!” She said, unsure of why she made that remark!

He picked up his bag and left.

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10 Things I believe in

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I came across a post like this which one of my blogger friends had posted and I got thinking, “What are the things that I believe in?” Here’s what I zeroed down on. I think these are the core things which make me and shape me!

1) God: He is the creator & destroyer and I am a totally God fearing person. I share a unique relationship with God where sometimes I talk to Him like a friend and at other times like a lost child seeking directions. From cribbing and  demanding reasons for my hardships to thanking him for giving me strength to fight difficulties, my relationship with Him has matured over a period of time.

2) Love: Oh my, who doesn’t believe in Love? For me,  love is something that keeps me alive. It is very essential for me to see and feel love around me – EVERYDAY! I make sure I get my share of love and pampering – be it from my mom or husband! Love can make you do things which you can never imagine.

3) Karma: All of us have hear “Karma is a bitch” haven’t we? But why blame karma when we ourselves are not doing right things. I totally believe that what you give comes back to you (in multiples). I have lived this idiom a lot of times in good as well as bad ways. For me, Karma has been the best teacher so far.

4) Spirits: I believe in Spirits and with all due respect to all of them, may I say I have felt them around lot of times. Spooky, isn’t it?

5) Destiny: There are no two ways about this one! Like it is mentioned in Bhagwad Gita – “Samay se pehle aur bhagya se adhik kissi ko kuch nahi milta” meaning – No one gets nothing more than what he is destined for and before the right time arrives.

6) Good Omen/Bad Omen: Yeah, you can call me superstitious, but I do believe in certain Omens! Like, fluttering of right eye, sight of a certain bird etc

7) Spiritual Healing: It has worked for me like a magic wand and hence I propagate this to many who are in need. It’s a different story that not many buy it, but their luck! 2 books which helped me incline towards Spiritual Healing are The Laws of the Spirit World by Khorshed Bhavnagri and Only Love is Real by Dr Brian Weiss.

8) My family: My Family is the rock and the pillar for me. Can’t imagine if I had have any value or existence without them. Family will always be a priority.

9) Positive Thinking: Yes, I completely believe in positive thinking. Many define it as wishful thinking but why not? I totally profess positive thinking because it creates positive vibes around me. And it keeps me happy! J I hate people who negate things in the first go – without even trying to evaluate the probability of the result.

10) Relationships: Relationships are like llifeline, aren’t they? One sour relationship and whole of your life is impacted. I try my best to care for the relationships that I have. What I want to learn is reviving the sour relationships.

These 10 things carve out my life! In Karen Moning’s words:

“It’s what you choose to believe that makes you the person you are”